UrPsychoNME's Xanga

Saturday, June 18, 2005

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 18:47:19 GMT

new xanga for me www.xanga.com/juggalopoizin17 so check that shit out. it has tha entry that is 2 down from here. btw i did it all by myself this time. :).

Friday, June 17, 2005

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 19:32:00 GMT

predictions-this weekend is gonna blow devins in some other state and melinas at her dads but she mite come home early :)

this morning was cool as fuck i wake up clean the living room n our hall then i go over to melinas n we just cuddled n watched comedy central all day n she finally gave me this letter. it gave me alot to think about n idk its hard to b depressed when u get a letter like that its like if im ever depressed all i need is that little paper and everything will b better. yesterday all i did was hang out n when i went home i talked to her online then called her n talked on the phone for like 2 1/2 hours. im gonna miss her over the weekend but atleast ill b able to see her sunday so really its just one day with out her. so if ne1 wants to chill this weekend gimme a call tomorrow im busy in the morning but yeah just call me up if ya need my number comment me or sumthin n ill give it to ya. mcl bitches-tom

Friday, June 17, 2005

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 00:38:29 GMT

dont fuck wit a drag queen bitch. haha love the nails hair n make up. melinas my special make up designer i guess. haha once again today just chilled wit melina n sara. kinda odd but today i was wearing lipstick along with the eyeliner n nail polish n saras mom said if she was younger she would do me. it was funny.

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 00:15:32 GMT

yesterday melina gave me shit to spike my hair cuz its so long so i spiked my hair today talked to 2 of my best friends rite now melina n sara they r tha shit. then went to melinas she did my make up its not a usual thing but i got use to it. went to show sara but she was in the shower so we talked to her mom n her mom said she liked it. then me n melina just pretty much chilled til 830 or so. we took pics n i told melina i want a pic wit her so i got it n its in my profile pic i got other ones too but we decided this one is one of the better ones. my nails r done 2. MCL-Tom

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 01:49:41 GMT

today i hung out wit melina n sara then i went liftin then hung out wit melina n sara for like 15 mins. melinas upset about sum shit if she didnt tell u about it its none of ur business n dont ask her. she has a lot of shit on her mind. n i hate seeing her upset. Not because I like her, it bothers me because shes like one of my best friends. N shes like family no im not insest. but idk when shes down im down. n when im down she always cheers me up so i wish there was a way i could cheer her up. so tomorrow im gettin with her n i want her to tell me everything thats on her mind. n if ne1s bothering her watch tha fuck out cuz ima have sumthin to do about it.

MCL-Tom

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 00:45:11 GMT

this is a song i wrote, its directed towards everyone even mother fuckers that read my xanga. just cuz i talk to u n shit doesnt mean were cool u dont understand tha only person i can trust ne more is jake cuz everyone else fuckin lies about bull shit. like my fuckin hair i seriously cant tell if it looks good or not everybodys like idk wut do u think if i new how it looked i wouldnt fuckin ask u. n like fuckin ppl who act like i cant tell if they r lying n they lie neway. if u think that i look like shit tell me i dont give a fuck if u think that i should die n go to hell tell me i dont give a damn just b honest with me if u think i suck at making music let me no lying will just get me more depressed in tha end like tonite. i was sober when i wrote this n then i got drunk n still wrote it its all a freestyle n took prolly like 20 mins cuz im talkin on im to ppl 2 but there wasnt ne real thinking when i did it. Ne way here we go:

If I would die tonite would u b by my side would u really give a shit or r u just a nother person that just wants me for my shit my money n shit so u pretend to b part of my clique u act like u actually give a damn but in reality u don’t even no who I am, u think im sum mother fucka that u can play a joke on have me tie another noose for me to choke on have me cut my self so u can drink my blood, n stay by my side cuz u think it matters if we in tha same hood, but I got sumthin to tell ya I don’t care who u r n how long u new me, cuz in tha end u just tryin to get me locked up n try to sue me, like my motha fuckin mother, spit to kids out after me so now I have 2 brothers n I gotta raise em both they both fuckin suck, n pretty soon they gonna b kissin my ass cuz I gotta truck theyll want me to drive them hear n there, little bitch get tha fuck outta here n my friends I aint got ne friends I got a couple homies thatll b there to tha end but wut good is that when its just around tha bend? N all these ppl wanna act like we down but they aint nothing but back stabbin bitches that will b eatin tha ground, ur a lo ur a clown who tha fuck cares, I am who I am n if u don’t like it bitch I don’t give a damn

Bridge:

Im sick n tired of all these lies when im pissed u appoligize n u think ill come right back, bitch u can suck on my nut sack, I am not a fuckin toy, don’t treat me like a little boy, I will fuckin chop off ur head n laugh when they confirm u dead

I heard everything u said u didnt no that I was rite there n quite frankly I really don’t care ur time is up time to shut u up bitch im ready to fuckin fuck u up all my life ppl told me lies, now im ready to rip out ur eyes so maybe just maybe u can see reality that ur just a poseur that just wants to b cool with me n call me by tom murphy, actin like we cool just cuz we went to tha same school tha same grade same year wut tha fuck do u no about fear u don’t know shit about wut I can do cuz if u did u would b scared 2, bitch fuck off, ill slice ur neck n make u cough bitch sumtimes shit kills ill staple ur eyes open n give u sleeping pills don’t get pissed flick me tha finger ill chop off ur wrists little bitch u don’t care n don’t act like u do, only true friends that I got is a few, I no every1 thatll b at my funeral n tha only nigga I no is lunnelle, the priest n a couple grave diggers, oh shit I guess it figures

Bridge plays in background (bridge stops beat stops n I just finish this paragraph with nothing else):

I just wanna say fuck off to everyone n everybody that thinks that they no me yall can just blow me, yall can fuckin have a good laugh I don’t give a fuck u arent my friend ull never b my friend fuck friends ur either family or ur not shit, don’t give me none of that man I love u bull shit fuck that I don’t wanna fuck hear that fuck u like bush fucks camels fuck u like a hooker in south central, just just go fuck urself I fuckin hate tha drama tha games tha ppl callin me names actin like it don’t effect me u no wut tha fuck ur doing, ur tearing me down n u then u call me up askin if we wanna chill fuck u fuck u u no who tha fuck u r bitch. Damn.

Monday, June 13, 2005

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 23:53:49 GMT

kinda weird day highs n lows for me.

Highs: jake came over today n woke my ass up so we chilled n smoked sum resin from his bowl got a little buzzed then went to my grandmas to go swimming it was tha shit. jake looked like jesus at sum points n when he leaned on shamu (an inflatable whale that was in the pool) he looked like a swimsuit model only if he had tits. it was cool tho im gettin a case tomorrow it was gonna b tonite but i gotta go visit my grandpa tomorrow morning.

Lows: i saw melina for less than an hour today. tha poll made my hair turn purple. i got tha shit pinched outta my arm by kates little sister lizzy and idk i got a lot of shit on my mind. i didnt do to good in the gym today but i wasnt concentrating so hopefully it dont effect me.

tomorrow i wanna see melina but idk how long it will b i think shes sick of seeing me considering since i moved into ephrata i hung out with her everyday. so tomorrow i mite just chill wit jake. idk. depends on how i feel. like for sum reason im starting to feel depressed again but like im not there yet.

Monday, June 13, 2005

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 05:31:15 GMT

tried to beat up sum bitches from denver but didnt have a ride smoked a joint a blunt n a bowl within less than 2 hours i was so fucked up. then melina me colton jimmy n heather shaved jimmys play pussy n ripped off its legs. speaking of shaving my hair is blue. now melinas chillin here wit me chopping up negatives (if u dont no wut tha fuck that is ur a homo). majik majik ninjas what? alright well yeah fuck yall not literally just felt like cursing. mcl-tom

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i wish i was a wizard.

Sunday, June 12, 2005

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 15:31:24 GMT

yesterday was pretty cool. i was online n melina n kevin came over then melina ditched me n kevin to chill wit heather she said its cuz she didnt see heather for a long time. its cool its almost impossible for me to get mad at her. so me n kevin chilled then tawny britt n britts sis tiff came picked me n kevin up n we chilled at the park with a bunch of ppl i broke a beer bottle on the ground n stabbed myself it didnt hurt but it was bleeding Todd cut himself too that was really fuckin deep u can see a blood trail of him walking to the bathroom to get a papertowel. his cut was crazy mine was like look blood. haha. i went home to eat then chilled wit melina n kate behind kates house to listen to a bunch of homeless people fight. pretty funny shit. we wanted to see a fight so when they werent around me n little reggan ran over to the ones car n tried to open up a door but they were locked. at the end of the nite me n melina went in her house can u guess what we did????

we died eachothers hair. im not sure if i look like a douche or not but melina looks pretty bangin. colton was cleaning up the die that got on the floor n we went in melinas room to get a pony tail so colton yells im not cleanin up the mess u guys make in there too. haha. so yeah i got black hair now melina got black hair now n jimmy says i gotta negro on my head. w/e mcl homies-Tom Murphy

Saturday, June 11, 2005

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 16:04:12 GMT

Everything fuckin sucks i thought melina liked me but now i dont think she does, all tha shit that happened yesterday is just gay. I HATE FUCKING DRAMA. n today i wake up with a call from my mom tellin me that my grandpa is in tha hospital cuz he had a heartattack. we get into fights n shit but hes my only grandpa i have left n i seriously do love him. he always tells me that im smart i no im not but still like nobody fuckin tells me that. so hopefully he makes it. if i move back to lancaster it would just b becuz of my gma n him. n sum ppl in skool but not a lot. well im out for now gotta think wtf to do. MCL-Tom